For a competition at the college ---- As I stared into the nothingness right ahead of me ........

For a competition at the college
---  written by me and Mr. Hari Krishanan
--- its just an attempt to create something with our two different kind of brains
--- a mixture of poetic lines and pros !!

Topic: As I stared into the nothingness right ahead of me ........

As I stared into the nothingness right ahead of me
saw a white ray coming out of the spree,
Nothing related to my destiny
it was a mixture of silence and cacophony.

As I walked ahead I could feel nothing,
But a blissful cold touch
asking me to walk more and enter the new world,
As I turned back I heard a voice calling for me
longing for my presence,
asking to avoid this weird essence,
in front of me ....

As I stared back into the real world,
I saw myself lying dead
My girl wearing the engagement emerald,
many tears she had shed

I remember the sharpness of the bullet,
which penetrated through my chest
yes, it was my enemy,
for whom I was nothing but a pest

Now as I realize its time to leave my body
and submerge into this nothingness
But again the past calls for me,
with the times filled with happiness

I remember the days we had,
‘kickass’ is word the word that defines it
my college, my hostel, my friends, my girlfriend(s),
the times that made me who I am

those copied assignments,
and the proxy attendance
coffee at the Nescafe,
studying hard just before the exam day

The stars of the football matches,
the fever for bunking classes
everything calls me back,
but here I stand and realize,
its the time which I right now lack

I do remember again
its time to go,
I had lost my life,
just in one blow

how much I ever try,
I won’t be able to go back,
the cold touch again reminds me
I am no more a part of that body

people from the world, that I was a part of
the ones who can feel closely, the void I have left behind,
their optimism towards life is currently switched off
my life has ended,  its nothing I can rewind

to any normal person, I’d be a dead soldier
who fought a war that ended in vain
but for me I have done my duty,
I have served my nation and
have protected my men

Though it hurts to leave everything behind,
yes, I do believe this is the best way to die
forgetting the pain,  due to this emptiness
now, I am just not staring but I AM the nothingness

The key to feel good

·         The surest cure for loneliness, the quickest way to happiness, is found in this, a simple creed: Go serve someone in greater need. ~ William A. Ward

Just found a key to feel good ... Bad times come and go ... such is life.
 Everyone has problems but it differs in the way everyone takes it. The ultimate human being is the one who tries to solve the issues with a bright smile on his face. But what is exactly needed to generate such a smile even in the times of crisis?? How can we gather courage to feel good even when we know that something is going wrong in our life?? The answer is simple – generate a smile on some one else’s face who is in a worse condition than that of yours. Yeah, it looks quite philosophical and less practical but try this out at least once. I have been trying this since a long time. Though my problems remain unsolved but I have enough positive energy and power to face them or even try to solve them.
At times in life you have this urgent need to “talk” things out. Something is burning inside you and you need to just help your vocal chords to vibrate enough to vomit it out. But the problem here lies – talk to whom?? Yes, everyone has a best friend but sometimes even they have bigger issues to solve than yours or they are pre-occupied by some one else’s problem, then is when your brain gets stuck and jammed. And yes this once again is the right time to use that key. Obviously you won’t be able to stimulate your vocal chords but yes you will be able to stop that burning sensation going inside your head.
Let me narrate one small incident from my life when I successfully used this magic spell to make me feel better – There was a day in my life when things were actually not working out. Everything and everyone was taking my case disregarding the fact that they did not know what was actually going on in my mind and what circumstances I was going through. I went to the store and bought chocolates for around 100 bucks (actually nobody gifts me things like this so its just me who buys on her own and eats without sharing :P). Then got seated at the corner of the main stairs and started eating them. Yeah, I had tears in my eyes and chocolate in my mouth. I started walking and left the academic block. While walking through the path I saw a bunch of labourers’ kids, those were the same kids who used to live next to the general store and I used to distribute them “5 rupey wali perks” during my first semester. It was not at all a piece of charity it was just that I like kids a lot, actually A LOT. I opened my bag and again started distributing those chocolates which I got for myself  but on one condition -- “first answer my question: What’s your name? In english then only you will get a perk from me” they did what I said to them along with “thank you madam”. The joy I had was something which I can’t explain and the happiness and smile which I saw on their faces was commendable. I turned and started walking, this time in a much lighter and happier mood. I again started pondering about my issues but with a power to face those hurdles. This power was a reflected result of the smiles which I was luckily able to generate on their faces. You can call it as being selfish but anyhow the idea worked.

I am not convincing anyone to go for charity and all or be sympathetic to anyone... its just that look around and serve anyone who is in a greater need than you. That anyone can be your friend, your sibling or just simply someone you don’t even know!!
This is how the magic spell works, it obviously can’t solve your problem but can give you enough courage to face them.

Look towards others, who are in a greater need than you, serve them and you yourself will be able to generate that eternal strength which can help you to cross hurdles of life.